Another Life Story

It’s been so long since I smiled a whole day through

Feels like I have been cursed since birth with no shoulder to hug on too.

Is it because the world loves me why everyone is so hard on me.

I’m confused and I don’t know why
Am I pleading for reality in one large dream, or did I do the world such wrong

That I’ve been sentenced to life of emotional bondage.

You know I just don’t get it,
every dream or desire I have to change the world seem to doubt me.

Is there anything that I can do, it seems like everything I do is a struggle

If my health is failing then my relationships are.

When I was going to a Christian school, they told me I was evil man,

They made me feel like God hated me, but there was no use in trying to influence them.

There mind was made up, out was their God’s compassion and a life of rules were the only way into their secret society.

My music began to be a subliminal hit, I became whatever the lyrics wanted me to think.
I could not think about allowing my rebellion to end, ignoring God,
I was left alone to defend myself in a graceless world.

I was giving but things were not giving back. life’s a bitch but you deal with it.
I figured as I was going down, the world might as well come with me.
I was a little hellion, oh well, you throw me chaos, I’m going to give you a little controversy.
Most people do not care what it was like for me growing up, despite all the pain inside,
I could not help but tell another life story, I don’t want to make you cry,
I know you won’t really care, I am just going to tell you how real life unfolded.
I recall life being just another struggle, why bother writing it all down,
before they take my coffin and close it, people will forget about what good I did in life.
Oh well, I got to go live out another story, just another one more to add to this life.