God Why?

I’m sitting here,

I tried looking but I can’t find anyone that would hold me near

I lost my path; the Church rejected what I had left

If I started with nothing, I seemed to finish last

I’m told to look to the future and forget the past,

But my past recurs even to this very day.

No one understands the things I hear people say

No one fully relates to the pain I feel

They said just keep on walking with my head held high

I’ve done all the walking but for my life I ask God why

I heard that people get what they deserve,

Seems like a lot of people are on their last nerves

I’ve been giving, grieving, caring, wishing for the best

Looks like I won one hell of a test

If hell is on earth, then that gives hope to my day

There just might be some light in the afterlife

Until I see that day, I have to ask God why